Why am I doing this again? Admitting that I messed up in public? Because I want someone out there to avoid the same mistakes I made.
Dear friend if you are reading this don't judge me. I am a pastor's daughter I know. I grew up in a Christian home and I do have Christian values. But I know that sometimes sheep do get lost. Even in the midst of the green pastures, and still waters we still think that the grass is greener on the other side. Only to find out that it was all an illusion.
What were my mistakes?
Parties, boys and alcohol. Yes. I did party and I'm NOT a party girl. I don't do parties and for my whole life up to coming to Uni I only went to like 3 or 4 parties. I changed that story in the space of 4 months. I had been to at least 6 parties here.
Now for the boys. I DID not go home with them or anything that bad. But I flirted, played around and I hurt some of my good friends.
Alcohol? I only drank a minuscule amount. Maybe you are reading this an laughing if I said that I drank vodka cruisers, and even then most of the time I never finished my drink. I never got drunk. the point is that I promised myself that i would NEVER do it at all.
It may look like fun. But I've been here. It's not. The truth is that there's no better place to be than the house of God. With Jesus. Right now I'm so ashamed that i wandered. But I did.
I just want to go back to My Father.
LORD im sorry. If your any friend I know reading this, I'm sorry. But don't judge me. I guess I had to go this path. Otherwise I would never know.
This verse God gave me two times
The LORD detests men of perverse heart but he delights in those whose ways are blameless.
Dear friend if you are reading this don't judge me. I am a pastor's daughter I know. I grew up in a Christian home and I do have Christian values. But I know that sometimes sheep do get lost. Even in the midst of the green pastures, and still waters we still think that the grass is greener on the other side. Only to find out that it was all an illusion.
What were my mistakes?
Parties, boys and alcohol. Yes. I did party and I'm NOT a party girl. I don't do parties and for my whole life up to coming to Uni I only went to like 3 or 4 parties. I changed that story in the space of 4 months. I had been to at least 6 parties here.
Now for the boys. I DID not go home with them or anything that bad. But I flirted, played around and I hurt some of my good friends.
Alcohol? I only drank a minuscule amount. Maybe you are reading this an laughing if I said that I drank vodka cruisers, and even then most of the time I never finished my drink. I never got drunk. the point is that I promised myself that i would NEVER do it at all.
It may look like fun. But I've been here. It's not. The truth is that there's no better place to be than the house of God. With Jesus. Right now I'm so ashamed that i wandered. But I did.
I just want to go back to My Father.
LORD im sorry. If your any friend I know reading this, I'm sorry. But don't judge me. I guess I had to go this path. Otherwise I would never know.
This verse God gave me two times
The LORD detests men of perverse heart but he delights in those whose ways are blameless.
Proverbs 11:20
So my resolution and promise to GOD and to my friends:
I will be a wiser person. No drinks at all. No partying and no boys. I will be the girl God meant me to be.
I guess that now I can pray: Father forgive me for I have sinned. thankfully I know my Father's heart will take this prodigal back in.
I will be a wiser person. No drinks at all. No partying and no boys. I will be the girl God meant me to be.
I guess that now I can pray: Father forgive me for I have sinned. thankfully I know my Father's heart will take this prodigal back in.
To whoever that reads this: I love you, so does God. More than you ever know. So stop trying so hard to fit in. Stop trying so hard to please everyone. And don't be fooled. the life of a miss Popular isn't all what it appears to be.
Now go be yourself. The Way GOD intended you to be. Special, courageous, beautiful and unique. God did not make a mistake when He made you. even if you strayed down the road. He still LOVES you. And will never forsake you. That's His promise. You can start over and you can make it through.
Loads of love to you. Roshi.
Now go be yourself. The Way GOD intended you to be. Special, courageous, beautiful and unique. God did not make a mistake when He made you. even if you strayed down the road. He still LOVES you. And will never forsake you. That's His promise. You can start over and you can make it through.
Loads of love to you. Roshi.
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